Usually when I make up a song I don't remember it for very long. But this one comes back to me all the time. I have to force it out of my mind if I'm in public. Today is Jesse's brother's birthday (I have to give him a nickname so he's not always in Jesse's orbit this way). As I was walking home last night I remembered the day of his birth, and how easy his was, compared to Jesse's, so easy that I started laughing in the middle of it.
I loved being their mother.
This corny song I wrote for Jesse
I hate these corny songs
That make everybody cry
So I don’t have any excuse for this one
It’s just been so hard
since you’ve been gone--
So I try to see you near me
I try to feel you near me
I try to know you’re near me
I try to see you everywhere.
I was walking in the park
Last night and everywhere I looked
I saw a little bit of you
In every face that passed me by
I saw the children you could have had
I saw the child that you once were
I saw the father you’d have been
I saw you old, and slow and grey
And I could feel you near me
I could see you near me
I could hear you near me
Saw you everywhere.
I went off the pills
And in my head I heard this song
And there’s so much I want to say
And hear from you, I’ll never hear you
feel you near me
I feel you near me
I see you everywhere.
I want to tell you
about your brother and your friends
They’re all doing well
And when I see them it’s a little gift
A gift from you, a bit of you.
That’s when we feel you near us
We feel you near us
See you everywhere.
This last verse is hard
Too much like saying goodbye again
Feeling your heart stop
Under my hand
So I'll pretend you're near me
I'll pretend I hear you
I'll pretend you're near me
And I'll see you everywhere.